I bought my laptop about two months ago.  Maybe three?  Before that I didn’t know anything about the net, really.  I am kind of lost still.  So far, I have attempted to become rich by signing up with online paid surveys, tried gambling for real money, and started purchasing things with my credit card that are not available in my hometown.  Like keychains that don’t say Montana Native on them.  I have also downloaded music, tried out chatrooms, and even attempted to become a published writer.  I don’t know how to back up my hardware or whatnot.  Rams and gigabytes and scams and illicit materials.  My computer is crazy, the internet is crazy, and I am crazy for using it.  I don’t want to go to online college, I am already in college, but I get 20 emails a day from online universities.  Gone are the days that I had to record my favorite shows, now I just download them.  I have become enamored with my laptop.  I covered it in cool stickers, that I found on the web.  But I am already starting to feel sad, disillusioned  by this world.  It is not real, and I can’t be real in it.  I won’t find love or money or happiness or God on this machine.  It is depressing, and I sort of miss the old me.  Who knew how to google something if I needed information and type and that was all I did.  I haven’t been living in a cave, I have heard of YouTube and all that.  I had just never seen it.  I want to start a blog, but where? And who reads blogs anyway?  Blog is a dumb word, we all realize that right?  I work with the elderly, and its not a cliche, they are always spouting off about how things were better in their days.  I always thought to myself, every generation has their pros and cons, and at least women can work and black people can be presidents and this is my generation, so please be nice.  But I am starting to agree with them.  And I am tired of being nice.  Of being politically correct.  I would rather live in Bedford Falls or have never had to hear the name Paris Hilton.  Unfortunately, this is 2009, the internet is part of our lives and I still really like it.  I just think it might be evil, is all.